today is the day i drive juli to the airport for switzerland. no genital music for a month, but the wheels are still very much in motion. in the meantime brett and i are sending packages, booking shows and planning tours for the moment she gets back. i will also be leaving for chicago on thursday..

last night my guy and i were talking about how important it is to support each others creativity, to inspire and motivate. i think that is the most important thing in any relationship, friendship or otherwise. he just placed "Gasoline" in a movie he edited that made it to outfest. when the festival starts the genitals will be sure to post it and let everyone know!!!

i made a list of "things i can do to love myself more each day"
and hung it on the wall in my room in case i forget again.

the first thing on the list is smile more
and the last thing is love more..need less

a woman at work just instant messaged me and told me that i have inspired her. she said she saw me go through a really hard time and turn inside myself for the answers to a lot of my questions and begin to heal.
she decided that she could do that too.

my friend Marcel told me a long time ago "you never know who is watching"

so i just read my first week's blogs

it is one year later and juli is getting ready to go to switzerland again, and i have slowed my life down to a screeching halt.
i wanted more time to do these things; sing, rehearse, record, read, pray, listen, feel, teach, fight, seek, snuggle, laugh, cry, write letters, taste, touch, play music honestly, and love fearlessly.
i have plenty of time now and it seems i am doing them all 10 fold, although maybe i am not loving as fearlessly as i would like~but i am loving, and i am doing the best i can. this book is helping tremendously..
and this place is quickly becoming my sanctuary.
at the same time i sleep 9 hours every night and i am spending lots and lots of time alone, it is time for my inside to catch up with the outside.

the genitals are in full force and moving forward. we are sending CD's, writing new songs, calling record stores, playing shows, printing shirts, booking tours.
it seems everything happens for a reason and i believe i needed to fall apart to come together to have the foundation within that is needed for this journey.