i miss winter.
this morning i woke up and the sky was white and it was cool.
my favorite weather. when it is like this outside i want to curl up and read with a big cup of coffee and my slippers on.
no sense of urgency to run out and seize the day like when it is sunny. no irritable hotness upon waking like dead of summer in LA wondering what the fuck am i going to wear in 100+ degree heat. i like the smell of rain, and when nature cleans itself and cleans up after us as well. scarves. boots. hoodie sweatshirts, beanies and puffy vests. lentil soup and garlic toast. or a tuna melt with tomato soup.
i'm feeling the urge to stay home and relax today and i know it's because the sky is white and i want to enjoy it.

listening to dolly parton in the morning i feel as if there is nothing i can't do.

must..get..exercize..

it helps my mood and my energy, this heat is making me tired and lazy.
summer is nice but i like days when the sky is white and i stay in all day.
i have a lot to do around the house and on the computer, phone calls, e-mails, and loose ends and i want to take a few days off to catch up.

my dad and step mother were down last weekend, they are hysterical. i always think of the Ropers, from Three's Company..always picking on each other and very funny.
i took them downtown to santee to look for wholesale fashions and fabrics, so much fun. next day was family brunch where the two of them told stories and made everyone laugh for 4 straight hours..crazies.

now i am exhausted, but it was worth it.
wish i could stay home from work today and play guitar and send e-mails..

there are so many decisions to make and none of them to be made right now..

what's that they say, when you don't know what to do, don't do anything?
well i am incapable of doing nothing, but i continue to move forward in action.
jobbie job stuff mostly, i'm gettin offers from all over the map..i keep showing up for interviews and folks are giving me offers..
there is one that i may take, and then tell them i can start on November 1st.
right when we get back from touring, how rock star is that?
then there is the idea of switching careers entirely to a freelance gig where i have more time for music..that would be great.
i used to think i needed more money so i could have $ for guitars, lessons, and peace of mind, financial freedom=creativity.
i am not sure what i believe anymore.
i look back to when i was broke and more creative than ever.
i was also working part time...

los angeles is expensive, and getting more so each day.

the job i have is sweet, they love me and i am good at it.
i could stay for a long time..as soon as i get the courage to tell them i am leaving for 6 weeks in the fall ;-)

so either way i am fine, needs are always taken care of.
life is good. no obsessions, no distractions, no crazymaking.
in the meantime i practice guitar, listen to the makings of our newest album, try to get shirts printed, look into corporate sponsorship from various companies, and try to wear life like a loose blanket..while at the same time not making any major decisions at all.