it's thanksgiving and i just made myself breakfast and am settling into the couch with my favorite green chai yogi tea..gonna break out my 2005 release of the muppet show season one. last night i got depressed after going to a work party and watching my office manager do tequila shots off of his girlfriend's boob job and i thought "isn't he, like, 45?" then someone got kicked out of the party for being seen doing coke in the hosts room and i thought "yup, time to leave folks!" (after i hit the pumpkin cheesecake obviously).

i woke up wondering if i should have gone to the bay area with allison to see family..she wrote to me on myspace last night after i told her the story and she said "in a battle of Us vs. Them, i choose Us 'cause we are awesome" which i agree with wholeheartedly.

but now i am happy to be alone today. gonna do a little writing, not here of course, the kind of writing that i don't post online. supposed to meet up with people later but that goes against my new isolation policy, i'll do it anyway because it's thanksgiving. my shrink says i am calmer than he has ever seen me and that i am learning how to just BE, which is what i was praying for at the beginning of this year so i guess it's good.

giving thanks folks, thankful to be on 'this side of the fence', in more ways than one.

i am convinced that when this is all said and done and the storm clouds pass i will most certainly be a fucking superhero.