it seems that the dark clouds in my brain have finally blown away.

today was rollapalooza, we jumped in the huge blow up jumpie thing in the grass, got hugs from the fascinomas, hello fevers and the unpopables, played a great show and saw beautiful art. i took a deep breath and felt happy and loved and among friends. it was like a weight had been lifted off of my soul that somehow got stuck a week or two ago and it was ready to go. i laughed and laughed and it felt wonderful. sometimes i can get real blue, and it is work not to let it take over. alanna lin and i talked about how girls like us get heavy sometimes, and it seems that is should be part of our daily job to swim upstream when it hits and just be happy. it is so important to learn one more time to love and accept who i am, and that i am a wonderful and loving human.
spent the day yesterday at the long beach aquarium with my dad and we have been talking and talking for the last 4 days. he is retired now and we made a pact to start seeing each other every 90 days or so, if i go up there or he drives down.


my daily meditation for today is on the reality that is my life, and that it is good.