life just keeps getting different.
i have jumped into the passenger seat and just watch cool shit happen every day.

i have decided that i like people again and have started leaving the house more and every time it gets better and better. trying to go to bed early tonight though, starting a new job tomorrow that will require a bit of travel and again i sit by and watch to see what will happen, but i did just get new luggage and a long wool furry coat! ..on the last job i was only there 3 months and my sweetie boss said "if you don't like this new one, call me and i will fire whoever i get to replace you!"
i am very lucky.

being more my "self" every day. finding out who that is and watching her change and growing to love her immensely. trying to treat myself like the most precious object i have. i am learning what it means when they say "you can't love anyone else until you learn to love yourself".
learning may not be a strong enough word for what is happening, i am feeeeling what it feels like to be a truly precious gift.

guitar lessons start soon and am getting ready to start rehearsals for orpheus so i have watched many versions this week. Cocteau's orpheus, Black orpheus (which made me want to listen to Jobim in Rio..definitely getting the soundtrack immediately). The genitals will be part of that multi-media creation so keep an eye and 2 ears out for it.
life is good, hearts heal, tears cleanse.

i am glad i am one who is not afraid to love no matter what.