i am so glad this week is over..so many changes and grieving of various things..i got so overwhelmed and lonely for a moment i couldn't see any sunlight and there was only clouds. i like clouds, but not in my head..i jokingly told juli i may start writing gothic love songs and she said
"no fucking way dude!" :)

today is sunday and i am having tea and oatmeal and my new place is sunny.
i made it through a hellish week of change. i moved, started new projects, showed up for school and life despite the tremendous pull of self-sabotage and emotional turmoil for which i struggle with regularly. complete exhaustion and the fact that when i am under stress, i always forget to eat and by 9 pm i think i am going to die.
the power of a piece of chicken and a nap is tremendous.
we had a rehearsal friday night, thank god. i told my dad that the only thing that never fails to soothe the soul is a music rehearsal. any kind will do but the genital special love sauce works best. i miss our 3xweek sessions, i think juli does too.

yesterday i walked to the top of mount washington, stopped in at the southwest museum and stood admiring the view and my neighborhood from up there. it was blanketed in fog and it was so beautiful and i realized that my life is really just fine.
my friend marcel always says "unless, of course dear, you have other plans?.."