it's almost over.
this year, the holidays...
just got home from jain and eliot's annual christmas tamale party. i love this party, i go every year. i love that jain and eliot have been married for some 21 years, and equally happy to open their home to so many people, to socialize, to invite their friends over year after year. i sat tonight with some folks that i have an appreciation for, even though we have been through some rough spots this year. to watch myself just BE, to sing and eat tamales, to get out of the way and just enjoy my life. juli and i played songs together, evangina...the guys are out of town for the holidays. we are both sick and we haven't played some of those songs in a while, we only had one mic and we did it anyway, it was lovely and everyone sang along.

last night i went to ikea looking for a bookshelf and ran into a dear old friend i haven't seen in 4 years at least it seems. we passed right by each other and it took me a moment to comprehend, but i turned around and called her name and we had a woody allen moment as we looked at each other. it was a friday night before x-mas at ikea, and whitney houston was singing carols over the loud speaker and we just started laughing. moments like that put everything into perspective. as we stood by the fake furry sheep rugs talking for at least an hour 1/2 about our deepest thoughts and feelings as if we just saw each other yesterday, i realized that time means very little. i have a tendency to get very serious sometimes, and very nostaglic and sad and i hang on to ideas of things that do not exist and forget to just enjoy each moment of my life as it unfolds in front of me.