growing pains today. on the verge of tears. tightness in my throat.

what do i want? what are my goals? speaking up is not easy. sometimes the truth can feel threatening to others. trying to come from a place of love and honesty.
"this is who i am, these are my goals, this is what I would like to do with my life and my gift of music"

not everyone wants what i want, and i can either stay very very still or i can grow a little and sometimes that means shedding skin, which hurts.

i feel a new awakening, a new beginning happening on the inside, which is currently affecting my outsides. i am uncomfortable with the way things are and my changing is scary, to myself and others. i feel a new maturity coming, a new perspective and i have been given new tools.

change takes courage and faith and is messy at first.
i am willing to be messy.

(voted at 8:30 this morning, my polling place was next door and i went in my pj's)